*Kiley sat in a chair near the back of the library. She was curled into a ball, her head resting on her knees, her hair a curtain around her. Kiley's face was heavily bruised along with her neck, arms, stomach, back, and legs. She'd taken a beating from Jesse. The way she was sitting hid all her bruises from plain sight, but if she were to life her head, her black eye, bruised cheek, gash on her upper lip that was surrounded by a bruise, along with the bruises on her neck would be visable. She hurt all over, but in an odd way, she was content and on the verge of falling asleep with the warm sunlight pouring through the window and onto her back, warming her and making her feel sleepy*

Simner walked through the library aimlessly. He had begun to look for a book on potions but got quickly distracted. He saw the sun shining though a window on a curled ball of red hair. Simner tiptoed up behind his sleeping friend. "Kiley," he said, softly"Wake up sleepy head."

*Kiley heard Simner's voice and half smiled, lifting her head, exposing her bruises* "Hey Simner" *She said quietly, tossing her hair back over her right shoulder* "How're you?" *Kiley waited for Simner's explosion, bracing herself slightly*

"Kiley?! What happened?" Simner said it shock. "Kiley... don't tell me nothing. Because it's not nothing". Simner squatted down beside her and looked at her bruises.

"I fell....down a hill" *She said, using the same lie she'd used on mel and Jake* "There were a lot of rocks...I look a lot worse than it is."

"A hill? C'mon! I have been working in the hospital wing for three years." He reminded her "I am gonna be a healer when I grow up. you can't fool me." Simner took one of her hands in his. "Lets get you up to the hospital wing..."

"No." *She said, then cringed internally at the fact that she's snapped at him and spoken too soon.* "Sorry" *She murmered brfore continuing* "There's not much people in the hospital wing can do Sim.....I mean....it's just a bruise or two..."

"It's not just a few bruises!" Simner protested "You look like a bear attacked you...if you won't let me take you up to the wing, lets get you to my house... I will fix you up there." Simner stroked Kiley's hair softly.

*Kiley sighed* "Simner, please. I'm fine. I know I don't look it, but I am. Really." *She tried to convince him*

"Is that true?" He said, trying to make her feel guilty. or are you just saying that?". He opened his eyes wide trying to figure out if it was true. He knew it couldn't be... it just couldn't.

"Don't you trust me?" *She asked softly, hopinh to make him feel guilty about questioning her. She looked down but then looked back up at him through her eyelashes, trying to look innocent and sad*

"I do trust you..." he agreed. "But things like this have happened before and you have said it was nothing...". Simner bit his lip. He knew he shouldn't push... but this was for her own good.

"This is nothing like anything that's happened before." *She said truthfully. She had never asked to be hurt as she was now.*

"Okay... then this is worse?" He asked. "Then how can something worse then anything then happened before be nothing?:. He was trying to trap her into a corner... he knew bruises like the back of his hand. This was no falling down a hill.

"I never said this was worse. I just said it was different." *She said calmly*

"How is it different?" he asked. Simner decied on one lasr trick. "Okay, you win... I won't push... but I am hurt that you don't feel comfortable enough to tell me the truth.." Siimner turned away pretending to be all mad.

"Simner, stop it. I feel comfortable telling you the truth. I did tell you the truth. I fell down a hill with a lot of rocks. I wasn't paying attention and I tripped. That's the truth." *She said, keeping her voice even despite the lie*

"Alright..." He decided, he didn't want to push "I will stop...". He still didn't believe her. But what could he do?

*Kiley sighed. She hated lying, but there wasn't much else to do. She couldn't tell him the truth...he'd think she was insane* "So how're you?"

"Good," *he said* "But still super stressed about NEWTs." *Simner knew they were both in the same boat. She had OWLs this year.*

"Studying for OWLs is such a nightmare. I think I'll just.....give up." *Kiley sighed and half smiled, obviously joking* "I could always help you study for NEWTs, Sim." *She offered, still feeling bad about lying to him*

"I will manage... I mean i got 9 OWLs... so i am pretty well off"" * He said. He closed his eyes feeling the warm sun on his eyelids.

"That's true....It sounds like you'll be okay." *She paused and reached to itch her arm, but intched over a bruise, which made her cringe and gasp slightly*

"Are you okay?" he asked "I know a quick spell to heal those bruises....". Simner knew she wouldn't say yes...but it was polite to offer anyway.

*Kiley shook her head* "No, I'm fine Sim. Thanks though."

"So, are you okay after the whole... Weston thing?" he asked. He had heard what happened. Not in detail. Just that he died.



OOC: he dies right?

ooc: yeah he died

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*Kiley lnodded, immediatly unable to speak due to the lump in her throat. She looked down into her lap and allowed a small sad smile* "I really miss him...." *She said quietly, not trusting her voice to speak at it's normal level. Her hand went to her left ring finger and absently pushed the engagement ring he had given her before he died around on her finger*

Simner took her hand in his. Feeling the engagement ring on her finger. He remembered having a engagement ring on his own finger. The feeling of weightlessness. Where a normal ring might get annoying during the day. "I am really sorry..." he said equally quitly.

*Kiley paused before speaking again* "It's just starting to sink in that I'm never going to see him again." *Another pause* "We were going to get married.....he was the one. That one guy. My one guy. Compleatly perfect in every way. And he loved me back, and he trusted me. And he would do whatever I wanted him to and he loved me. And now it's gone. And I'm never going to have that again. I'm never going to wake up and see his face, or see him grin when I'm a slob at breakfast, or have a snow ball fight that he'll let me hit him in the face just so he can complain untill I kiss it to make it better. There's a hole inside me....in here..." *She lightly hit her chest with her fist* "And it's ripping at me and it's empty and I can't breathe or function or eat or sleep or socalize or be normal around anything. I can't exist among normal happy people anymore...because I'm going to infect them and make them unhappy. And I'm tired of pretending I'm okay and that I'm going to be fine. I'm not going to be fine. I'm not fine. And I don't know how to deal with it so I do stupid things that work for a day or two but then it just hurts worse..." *Throughout her rant she had been speeking slightly faster untill it reached the point of hypervenelation. She pulled her legs up to her chest and let her head drop to her knees , hugging her legs to her body. She tried to take deep breaths but she couldn't get her breathing under controll and keep herself from crying all at once, and she was mostly concentrated on the no crying more than the breathing, so she continued to breathe just as rapidly.*


ooc: wooo goooo monolouge. lol I like that post. I'm proud of myself. lol

Simner hugged her tightly. He tried to stop her hyperventilating by pressing on her chest."Kiley... I know how you feel...And I want you to know that it will be alright" He said, stroking her hair. "I know how it feels to feel so complete... then lose it all... just as fast as it came"

*Kiley relaxed slightly as she squeezed her eyes shut, burring her face in the crook of simners neck. She tried o take deep breaths and keep from crying, which was proving to be extreamly difficult. Kiley could already feel the hot tears leaking through her shut eyelids*

*Simner tried to keep her breathing normal by pressing her back. He felt her hot tears flowing down his neck and shoulders.* "It's okay... you don't have to be strong for me..." *Simner resumed stroking her hair.*

*Kiley stayed as she was for a few moments before sitting up and wiping away her tears.* "I'm sorry..." *She mumbled, embarassed for going to pieces in front of him*

"Don't be...." *Simner said* "I would have broken down much more....remember, this is what I am here for" *Simner gave her a week smile.*

*Kiley noded* "I just...don't know how to deal with it..."

"First, get all your tears out"*Simner said,* "then we will work from there"

"no...I'm good. Done crying. She said, wiping her tears again* "We can move on..."

"Okay... not you need to say all the things you feel," *he said* "You need to face your fears... head on"