Cecelia had an armful of books as she was walking. She had just taken a turn, her friends going in the other direction so she was now alone. Running through her head were the last few words he had said to her... Dorien had told her that she... No. She didn't even want to think about him anymore!

*Dorien decided to be vool and take a walk down the hall to get outside to get some fresh air. When he saw Cecelia he turned and walked the other way, hoping she hadn't seen him, but knowing Cecelia, she had.*

Chi-chi rolled her eyes, not bothering to follow him. "Now that I know your true feelings towards me Dorien, I'll leave you alone. I understand that I disgust you so please...you can walk by me. I won't even look at you."

"I never said that you disgusted me Cecelia." *He said through gritted teeth, stopping where he was standing* "You're just chosing to think that. It's not my fault that you do." *His pale hands were clenched into fists by his side and he wasn't looking at her....he still had his back turned and his eyes were closed in an effort to calm himself down*

She stopped walking, then turned to look at him. "It's quite obvious the way you feel about me. You don't look at me, you look pained even if I'm this far away! You try your hardest not to talk to me and like an idiot, I tried to force you. It's not your fault you know...It's mine. I tricked you into taking blood you obviously wanted, I followed you like a stupid puppy..." A few tears trickled down her cheeks. "It was obviously unwanted...and when I kissed you you..." She turned away, not wanting to look at him.

"I'l leave you alone now... Now that I'm done making an ass out of myself."

"I do those things for your own saftey...if you would just listen to my and do what I asked you and try to make it easier for me....but you don't. It's not that I don't want to be around you, It's that I don't want you to be around me. It's better this way. For you. It doesn't seem like it, but it is"

She dropped all her books and swung around to look at him. "I have had it up to here with all that bullshit nonsense about keeping me safe!" This was not like Cecelia...she rarely raised her voice and all that happened was that it sounded shrill and shrieky.

"Why treat me like I'm poison? That won't work! You have yet to hurt me Dorien, and may I say," she said, stomping forward so they were nose to nose, "You would do well to remember that I keep my promises, so I expect you to keep yours. You said so long as I was with you that I would be safe...And I trust that I am."

*He had wheeled around to face her* "I ment that you would be safe from the animals in the forest that I was going to kill....with my bare hands so I could drink their blook like some sadistic monster. That's what I am. A monster. And if you had ANY common sence at all you would realize that no matter how I try, you will never be compleatly safe in my presence.......everyone slips sometimes. And that scares me."

"I think you should know by now, and it's very obvious that I have no common sence!" She huffed, trying her best not to laugh at herself. "And it's quite obvious I mean absolutely nothing to you so why should you be scared if you were to hurt me? I taste good and all, so why not just kill me and be done with it?" She pulled her hair back and ripped down the side of her dress. "Then you'll be rid of me for good!"

*He glared at her and wanted nothing more than to hurl a plate at her head and storm off and kick something.* "You have the STUPIDEST ideas." *He said, not yelling stupid but stressing it. His voice was slightly raised but not to the point of shouting* "Yeah, I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You're being reallystupid so knock it off."

She clenched her fists, wanting nothing more than to punch him dead in his face... But of course the stupid f*****g vampire would heal in like three seconds so it wasn't enough... She wanted to do something that would hurt him, like he was hurting her, but he couldn't think of anything... She was so frusterated that all her body could do to release the pressure was...

A few steps to the side and her face was in her hands, pressed up against a window. Her body was shaking as tears spilled through her fingers and onto the floor, louder than should've been possible. She couldn't take it anymore... She'd never liked anyone like she liked Dorien, and he seemed to hate her...

*He sighed and looked away/ He was still mad at her. Of course he didn't think like that about her. But now she was crying.......he hated when people cry. Not because it upset him, but because he never knew what to do.* "Cecelia......please stop crying...." *He looked back at her, his voice a little softer despiyr his anger*

She shook her head. "I just can't take it anymore! All I've done was try my best to be nice to you! I'm nice and I'm sweet...I do what I think is best, I try to help you.. And you act like I'm a burden. I'm unwanted and I can see that now but I-" She choked over her own sobs and wiped her face with a sleeve, still refusing to look at him.

"I made an ass of myself because I thought if I liked you.. Well, I guess I sort of thought you would like me back." She turned to look at him, defeat across her face. "I was wrong... You don't have to pretend..." She touched his cheek with a tear-soaked hand. "It's not your fault...I'll leave you alone."

She walked over to her pile of scattered books and began to pick them up.

*He stood there for a moment, really really despising himself.* "Ceceila......" *Dorien paused, struggling for words.* "You're not a burden. The last time someone seemed to care about me as much as you do was.........1937." *He smiled weakly and continued* "All I wish is that you would listen when I ask you not to move or when I tell you that I need to sit on the other side of the room for a few minutes....I haven't had a long time to get used to this. I'm still considerably young for what I am and my instincts are very strong.....it's hard to go against them. And sometimes I fear that I've gone too far. And I'm really trying...." *He stopped and looked down at his feet, still feeling like the scum of the earth*


ooc: me ish tired. lol. I'm gonna go to bed now. night

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She shook her head and looked up at him. "Dorien, this is torture for me! I can't just sit around and wait for the 'someday soon' where you can actually look at me without cringing..." Tears filled her eyes, and this time it had nothing to do with her pride.

"Do you know how ugly you made me feel? I've felt a lot of things, but you're the only one who's ever made me feel this ugly."

"I'm sorry..." *He muttered, looking at the ground* "I'll go.....I'm sorry I hurt you. I never ment to." *He sighed and looked up at her. His eyes were still light from his recent meal but they were intensly sad. He started to walk away going closer to her so he could pass her to get outside*



ooc: ummm, some time after dinner. I have work then we're eating at my grandma's. sorry I can't get on sooner.

She reached out and grabbed him, and stood up with a sniffle.

"Just explain one thing to me Dorien...When we were in the cabin-" She took a deep breath and allowed some tears to fall in a mixture of fond and painful memories. "When you kissed me goodnight...Why did you do it? Why did you seem okay with it and why did you seem almost happy?"

"Because I was enjoying myself and I was glad that I was with you. I don't know. It went wrong when I tried to tell you that it's hard for me to kiss you unless you would sit very still.....and I didn't say it right. I wanted to talk...I was happy because I thought I was finally going to have someone that I could talk to...really talk to...noot have to pretend like I do around everyone else. I could tell you about.....the real me." *He shrugged, not really sure what else to say*

Cecelia licked her lips and looked around. "But... But we feel obviously very differently about each other..." She sighed and let him go. "I mean I like talking to you and all but if I bother you so much then what's the point?"

"Why do you think that you bother me?" *He asked, obviously worn out.* "Just.....I'd like to know." *He took a step backwards and leaned against the wall, sliding down so he was sitting on the ground instead of standing. He looked up at her, awaiting an answer*

She shrugged. "You never seem to want to be around me and...I'm just not used to that Dorien. I mean, I'm a half veela. I get attention twenty four seven. I never get ignored, I just don't! I just sort of...put attention and affection together so if a guy isn't..." She wiped one wet eye. "I mean, you kept pulling away when I kissed you, like I disgusted you so I just thought..."

ooc: sorry if these posts take a while. I'm watching who's line is it anyway. lmao. love this show. lol



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*He sighed and let his head fall back against the wall* "Cecelia...I'm going to be different from anyone else. One, because I was raised in the late 1800s and I just...I'm used to that." *He smiled and then it faded* "And two, and most importantly, I thirst for your blood. And it's extreamly difficult for me to handle. I haven't been doing this...only drinking animal blood, for very long. And it's really hard to resist my instincts." *He tried to explain*

"Well then," she asked, licking her lips and urging him with her chestnut brown eyes, "Do you like me? And I don't mean just as a conversation companion." She figured his answer was probably going to be no, and she was prepared for what was coming, but she hoped that...well... She hoped.


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"Yes......I do." *He said, then looked up at her* "I just want to go slowly.....very very slowly. And I want to be safe around you because I do like you." *He looked down at his hands and then back up to her*

Both of her arms twitched, and so did her lips slightly. Was he lying? No... He didn't seem the type to lie so... She shook her head and released the breath that she wasn't aware that she had been holding in. "Is it okay if I hug you? Or is that too quick?" She knew it came out rather sarcastic, but she really wanted to hug him, tightly.

"No...a hug would be okay." *He had chosen to ignore the sarcasm. Dorien stood up so he could hug her propperly. He sighed* "I'm sorry if I've hurt you Cecelia..I really am."

Cecelia walked in his direction and not quite intentionally, thrust herself into him. She wrapped her arms around his neck, burying her small face deep into his neck and feeling as though she never wanted to let go, never...

"It's okay I guess...It shouldn't have hurt me as much as it did but.. I've never really felt this way about anyone before. I think it just scared me and then you pushed me away, and-" She cut herself off, pressing her tear-stained face into his neck once again.

*Dorien brought his hands up and held her lightly, one hand on the small of her back, and one farther up. He looked over her to the other side of the hall where all her books were scattered, thinking of what she was saying. She said that she liked him....really liked him. Another reason that he had been pushing her away was because he didn't want to really like her as much as he already did. Mostly because he was immortal and she wasn't. And each option was equally unpleasant....damning her to a life of night or watching her grow old and die. It made his heart ache, but he didn't say anything. He just tightened his grip on her slightly*

She breathed deeply, taking in his scent and smiled. She placed a soft kiss against his neck and smiled as she felt him squeeze her tightly. "You have no idea how glad I am that you don't hate me, like I thought you did." She stood on her tiptoes and felt a wave of happiness rush over her whole body.

*He smiled and released her so that he could look at her and talk* "I'm glad you understand why I....acted like I did." *He sighed* "It gets a little easier all the time you know....When I'm with you for long periods of time I don't notice it anymore. But on the other hand when I'm away from you then I have to start all over again...not compleatly from scratch though, I think"

She nodded, a little upset at having to get out of Dorien's embrace. Her pout was not very well hidden as she deffinately didn't want to let go. "I understand...But you have to understand that this will be difficult for me as well. I have a hard time understanding why I don't get my way because it's so rare and..." She licked her lips, revealing the long, yet healed scratch where she had allowed him to drink her blood. "I may be a little difficult... But I will learn. I promise." She took his cool hand in her warm one and rubbed it softly, trying to warm it up.

*He saw the cut and felt terrible. Even though she had forced him to do it, Dorien hadn't resisted because he had been too weak.* "Well....it'll be hard. But if you're careful I think we'll be ok." *He smiled reassuringly and glanced down at their interlocked hands* "I don't think that's going to work." *He smiled a little, refering to her attempt to warm his hands*

She raised an eyebrow, confused for a moment. She looked down and saw her hands and his. "Oh... I knew that." She chuckled and brought his hand up to her warm face. "Well... Maybe your coldness will rub off on me. I'm always hot." She nodded, knowing it came out cocky but hoping he would realize that that was very much not what she meant.

"Yes...you're very warm. Of course I'd be a terrible judge of that. Everyone's warm to me." *He smiled* "Do you want to go somewhere? Because I'm fine, but you might get tired standing here and all....and it's not very private so we can't really talk or anything."

She brushed her hair from her face and shrugged. "The only place that's private that I know of is that little cabin of mine.. Everywhere else people can find me..." She realized her voice sounded very vulnerable and young all of the sudden and tried her best to mask it with a smile, but it didn't really work.

"I can make us something to ea-" She bit her lip. "You don't really eat do you..."

"No, and I'm not hungry for anything managable." *He smiled* "We can go to the kitchen if you'd like and get you something to eat. I don't mind at all." *He chuckled* "Just to let you know in advance, you'll have to tell me when you're hungry.....I have a hard time remembering that kind of thing. I'm a bit out of practice I guess."

She shook her head with a chuckle. "If I'm going to eat I'd rather go to my cabin in the forest. The house elves will not let me cook in the kitchens because they insist on waiting on everyone so..." She rolled her eyes. "Besides, I have a hankering for some fried chicken and nobody makes fried chicken better than me." She took him by the hand and tugged him toward her. "Can you taste food and just don't have to eat it, or does it taste icky?"

*He tried to think of a way to explain it to her. Dorien bent and picked up her books and then rejoined hands with her, beginning to walk along with her towards the cabin* "It's like....someone daring you to ear dirt. You could do it if you wanted, but it wouldn't be very pleasant."

"Ick.." she said, wrinkling her nose. "That's icky..." She looked up at him. "I'm so sorry...My fried chicken is so good too!" She tapped his nose with one finger. "Let's go."

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