Me and my boyfriend were together for a year and 4 months and out of nowhere the day before yesterday, he broke up with me... We were engaged, (he let me keep the ring) and I was even pregnant not too long ago but we lost our baby.. Her name was going to be Emily Catherine Jordan... It hurts really f*****g bad and even as I type, I feel like crying...

I'm really sorry. This probably isn't the right thing to say but Catherine is my full name, and I think that Emily Catherine would have been a really pretty name.
That's really terrible that he would break up with you. Espically with no explanation. I don't know what to tell you except to hang in there and that we're here for you.

I'm glad I have someone but...I'm just so unhappy. I've been crying all effing day and I just want the pain to stop

You can't expect it to stop right away. But it will eventually. It might take a while but it'll get better eventually. You could try keeping a journal....if I'm really upset I write about it and it makes me feel a little better.

I can't even look at my journal..the way I had it was so that I was writing to him instead of Dear Journal, it was his name... I just want to curl up in a ball and die... But I know that's rediculous...

It really isn't. I did the same sort of thing. I would write letters and stuff in my journal. Now I just...don't look at those sections. Sometimes when I'm feeling really machocistic I'll read them and then go and watch the notebook and bawl my eyes out. Which is really pityful....but it kind of helps a little

I just hate that this happened and all I want to do is pick up my phone and call him but I'm dreading hearing his voice because I know it'll make me cry to hear him.

You could call him...I hate to compare myself to you because I just...do. I would wait a little bit but it's up to you.

Calling him would just hurt me way too much, you don't even understand...

This is hard to say, and probably harder to hear, but you need to leave him alone. Don't call him back, don't sit around beating yourself up thinking about what you should have done, or what you could do to get him back. Unless he calls you, don't call him. The truth is that you deserve better, and you could do better. You need to move on, find a something to do to help you get over this. You can find someone better who will be better to you. You didn't deserve this, especially after what you have been through. If you need someone to talk to, I'm here.

What you don't understand is that he was my best friend for 4 years. I was in an abusive relationship with his best friend...He saved me from her, stopped being her friend...three years later we got together, we got engaged, planned this pregnancy...and for what?

*sigh* All I want is to hear his voice and not as the boyfriend Finn...as my best friend. He was my best friend in the whole world...

I really don't know what to tell you other than I'm sorry.

If the old journal hurts you too much, maybe you could start up a new one. You don't have to go buy a new journal, you could just use an old notebook or even type it up and save it onto your computer...whatever floats your boat.

Give it some time; Once you feel comfortable with what happened, call him and talk to him about it. If he doesn't want to, don't make him. I know this sounds hard, but it he isn't willing to talk to you after all this, you're just going to need to give him up and find a new confidant, because that means he's not worth it.



~Mel

That was my baby... I fell in love with him, I fell in love with his family... He made me feel so safe and so beautiful... I just don't know what to say or do anymore.